Why do they grow up so fast ! It feels like only 5 minutes ago that my eldest was born! And my youngest (who is nearly 2) is stil a 6 month old baby in my eyes!
I’m petrified my youngest is due to start nursery in January and tis time next year I’ll be getting my eldest ready for school. Every keeps telling me how amazing it’ll be to get some me time and kid free time, but I honestly don’t know what I will do with the time other than worry about then and feel awful for begrudging them there freedom and Independents.
I know it’s ridiculous and completely irrational to feel that’ll be redundant and no longer any use. But I can’t help but feel this way.
On the plus side I will be able to drink a hot cup of tea without wearing any of it. I’ll be able to clean my house without to tornadoes leaving a wake of destruction after me. And maybe just maybe I will be able to regain a little of my identity again rather than just being someone’s mum.
With all this said and don’t I unfortualy stil don’t feel any better about the whole situation and it will end up being more like me bored and busting a gut to pick them back up again.
For Now though I can take my mind off it trying to organise my son’s birthday and get ready for Christmas! Yes i said it the “C” word… it’s out there now and I’m not taking it back. I am a very organised person and I have started Christmas shopping already. But I have to be we are a one income family with two children under 4 as well as a large family so starting early is the only way I can afford to get the kids everything I want to get them. Hopefully it will keep my mind busy so I won’t have to think about losing my babies to school and nursery !